I am at a crossroad. crossroad of life. ever had a moment where you see your life going one way or the other. i guess ultimately its in your own hands. well, i am at that moment. this past week i have been making many career choices. none of which is fundamental, but it will definitely pave the way for what i see myself doing next. its hard being an adult and making choices like these. if i was to tell you what i had to decide on, you would probably wonder why i am so stressed out about it. i guess its just my character. tough being me sometimes. i was telling a friend yesterday that we are young and are allow to make mistakes. however, i seem to have forgotten that the same standard applies to me as well. i am afraid of failing and making mistakes. i like to do things right the first time around, who doesn't. and when it doesn't turn out the way i want it, i am very hard on myself. a little self discovery. interesting. i have been trying hard to be easier on myself, but its tough. because i feel that if i am lenient on one thing, everything else will go too. i guess i have to learn to balance it.

anyways,